THE BLURB.I’m warning you. The blurb is misleading. Here I was thinking that this was just another cutesy love triangle story. No major major. Only a love hate story among two boys and a girl and in the end, only one boy will be chosen. But oh boy was I wrong. It wasn’t a light read at all. I’ll probably include this to my 2012 best reads.

Your words

Why do they define me?

Why do I believe you?

Your face,

Your lips, and your fingers

Don’t spill them on me.

I’m bones, blood, and flesh

Not clay to be pounded

And scorched in the fire

That seethes in the hate you feel.

I bleed when you wound me

Just like the pretty girls do.

Empty

God, take all these feelings,

Let me just be

A shell

Alone on the seashore

While life swells around me.

Soft tiny fingers,

That sweet baby smell,

Still the dream lingers

Please take me from this new hell.

THE MYSTERY. Beth and Derek continued their relationship after the competition in Switzerland. But just like any other relationship, there are also rough patches. Slowly, Derek’s mystery began to unveil. Beth began to doubt his alibis. There were times when he rides his motorcycle just to visit her but there were also moments when he disappears for weeks or sometimes months. And when she began to question him, he just shoves it and distracts her with his charm. Derek’s condition only becomes clear when he faints on a broadcasted coverage of their performance. That’s when Derek finally admitted that he’s sick ever since he was a kid. He has a CF or a cystic fibrosis and has considered hospital his home.

He doesn’t treat you, babe, like I do

He doesn’t meet you babe, like me

I’ll be your rescue on the horizon,

Your prince on bended knee

I’ll climb your walls,

The dragons fall,

If you’ll stay here, babe, with me.

He’s creepy, so creepy, stay with me.

You’re the beauty to my beast.

If we kiss, the spell will release.

It’s midnight, girl, the ball has passed.

Wake up, and you’ll see

Whose love will last.

He’s creepy

SCOTT. The best friend. Well, Beth had a thing for him until Derek came along. She’s her protector since third grade and he’s been loyal to her. He also has a thing for Beth and even when she’s with Derek, he doesn’t hide that fact. He still keeps flirting with her. He’s really in love with her that he’s willing to let go of his pride and be second as long as Beth gives him a chance. I like Scott but I love Derek. Though it’s good that Scott was there till the end to give courage and comfort to Beth.

REALITY. When Derek met Beth, he became more focused and determined to live. He went through all his therapy and even takes all his medicines on time. But then we to consider the reality. Time is running out and he needed a lung transplant so he could live. He had been a fighter and was revived so many times already. The last time he woke up after another revival, he finally accepted that he can’t do it any longer and he ask Beth to sing him to sleep with the song he composed for her entitle, Beth’s song. That scene was so heartbreaking and it still had that effect on me. Up to now considering that I’ve read this last week.

Don’t steal away your love.

Don’t steal away your touch.

Without your smile I’ll touch.

Without your smile I’ll never find

The star you shine.

 

Don’t leave me without hope.

Don’t say it’s for the best, love,

When I’m lying here alone.

Please stay, cause I can’t make it on my own.

 

Who will be the boy who heals my heart?

Who will be the boy who feeds my art?

Where will I find a friend?

Who will be the boy who makes me sing?

You made me live, made me who I am.

If you’re leaving, take me with you,

Here’s my hand. 

 

You spoke of peace and rest,

A joy that filled your breast,

And then you closed your precious eyes.

God set you free.

 

So I will carry on,

Forever sing your song.

If I have to live without you now.

I’ll love the best I can. 

But whisper when you’re near me, and I’m home.

 

Together, we’ll find somebody who

Will help us keep on breathing without you

 

Will you be the boy who heals my heart?

Will you be the boy who feeds my art?

Please, will you be my friend?

Will you be the boy who rescues me?

Will you be the boy who makes me sing?

Will you make me true to who I am?

If you’re leaving, take me with you,

Here’s my hand.

If you’re leaving, take with you,

Here’s my hand

I was crying while imagining Beth singing this song. I even got goosebumps. I can feel the song to the deepest core of my body. I can even hear the melody of the song. I can feel her sadness and her devastation over her loss.

Quotable Quotes

Scott: You are so naive.

Beth: This isn’t about him. It’s about you. I can’t be that girl in your daydreams rocking the baby while you play catch with our son. That’s what you want. Find someone who can give you that.

Scott: Is that what you think of me? That I care about some stupid fantasy more than I care about you? The dream can change, Bethie. As long as you’re in it – that’s all that matters.

Beth: I’m sorry, Scottie. I really am. I’m not in it.

Scott: You can’t know that.

Beth: Find somebody cute and sweet who adores you.

Scott: Don’t make me retch.

Beth: Please, Scottie, stop torturing yourself. Stop torturing me.

Scott: No way. I’m here, Bethie. Every day. Loving you. Wanting you. I’m not going to run off into a hole and lick my wounds. I’m going to bleed in front of you. I’m not going to fake it with somebody else. I’m going to be right here in your face – until the day I die.

Beth: You following me to college?

Scott: Yep

Beth: What if Derek and I decide to get married? Will you walk me down the aisle?

Scott: You won’t marry him. He won’t last. I will. You’re going to marry me.